richardsikenpdf-archive-deactiv:

being an eldest daughter is just [writes a poem about private and intimate moments in your mother’s life because she’s inadvertently passed those moments down to you and you can’t put them down] [writes a poem about your father’s anger and your own simultaneous sympathy for and anger at him] [writes a poem about loving your siblings and cracking under the weight of it] [writes a poem about being unable to run away]

#honestly this mooood#always had to take care of everyone#my dad was here until i was 13 but not really there and sometimes i think he just didnt know how to be a father and was too afraid to learn#and then from 13 to about 20 i helped raise my two youngest sisters whilst trying to hhelp my mum and learn to take care of myself#and sometimes i feel like ive missed out on my teenage years by having to step up into this role of carer and teacher that i clearly wasnt#ready for or didnt know how to properly fill#its so hard being the eldest daughter and feeling like youre not doing enough#text
  1. ghosttsar reblogged this from ghosttsar-a
  2. j-ao reblogged this from nineta-ils
  3. nineta-ils reblogged this from raspberryastronaut
  4. raspberryastronaut reblogged this from ovrystie
  5. ovrystie reblogged this from thoska
  6. thoska reblogged this from flleuri
  7. ghosttsar-a reblogged this from lunastaes
  8. palebun-16 reblogged this from flleuri
  9. flleuri reblogged this from riot-nymph
  10. riot-nymph reblogged this from introsepctive
  11. poltcrgeist reblogged this from mehenxe
  12. sherwritings reblogged this from mehenxe
  13. whinyalienz reblogged this from orlamccools